Kazahaya Kudou

And just like my name, I'll disappear in the wind...

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Hayato
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by [info]yamikakyuu 

justbecause
Hayato
[info]kazahayakudou


do it for the lulz
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Icons
Hayato
[info]kazahayakudou

Today I discovered two things about my computer:
1) I can write in japanese... WHY AM I SO SLOW?? GOD! This is very important to me, because I can make icons and write cool stuff in japanese study japanese, my teacher will be very happy XD
2) I LEARNED HOW TO MAKE MY ICONS MOVE *cries* I'm so happy! I never thought I would make animated icons (because I'm some kind of complete idiot regarding computer/html stuff).

I'm quite happy! So I decided to use this knowledge! :D YAY TO ICONS!



Teasers:

  


Nabari no Ou: 27
Darker Than Black: 24
Persona Trinity Soul: 14
Random: 5
Total Icons: 70 (wait... is this really correct?)




Well... what do you think? Would you guys believe me if I said that all I wanted was one ZoroxSanji icon? Yeah, I wanted one really badly, but then I discovered the thing about animated icons and... >_> I completely forogot about the OP icon... now that I remembered... I want it. but I'm tired and I don't want to make one...>_> 

Damn sexy butler~
Hayato
[info]kazahayakudou



Oh Sebastian~  I feel like coloring all Kuroshitsuji pages... <3
And also, two icons just for the lulz

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And something totally unrelated: Hey, Takuto-chan! Did you receive the e-mail I sent you with a xxxHolic fanfic?


Did another header :D
Hayato
[info]kazahayakudou
Did this D.Gray-Man header for my little brother [info]kakkei I was bored and he says that I never do anything for him... so, there.

...

The problem is: I liked it so much that I want to steal it for myself :D



I made this for him, but he barely uses lj >_> that little brat! So, it's for grabs, feel free to use! Just give me credit for it and comment here okay? 
No credit = me hiban'ing your virtual ass D: (sorry... I'm a little cranky/bitchy)

Dark thoughts
Hayato
[info]kazahayakudou

So... I watched all episodes of xxxHolic: Kei so far and... damn...I feel a little depressed. I was thinking about Doumeki and what is going on in his head when he's almost desperate, when he's alone and in the dark. I was trying to think of what his worries are, what he thinks when he's not being superhero!Doumeki, you know? So... after no small amount of angsting in my very own mushroom corner I decided to write a fanfic..... in ENGLISH! LOL *laughs at this inside joke that no one that was born in an English speaking country could understandor possibly find it funny, but, whatever...*

Er... please, keep in mind that English is not my natural language and I don't own xxxHolic If I did however, there would be more man loving! 

Title: Dark thoughts
Fandom: xxxHolic
Pairing: A tiny little damn small 104 content
Warnings: Angsting, lots and lots of angsting... And bad grammar... And confusing sentences... And jumping thoughts... And FOREBODING (but that's natural if you write canon xxxHolic) oh... and spoilers (volume 10). ... and... *cough*possibly some OOC-ness on Doumeki's part *cough*


104


Doumeki looked at the object standing quietly and innocently near his futon with the same serious look which he treated anything related to Watanuki Kimihiro. He suspected that no one sane enough would stare at an egg with such a fierce look as he was doing right now, but then again… then again, nothing given by Yuuko-san should be considered normal and therefore, normal rules shouldn’t be applied to this case. He looked carefully at the small form standing there, he didn’t have any kind of supernatural intuition like Watanuki, but he couldn’t help feeling like whatever he was always doing or thinking when he was near this thing was of huge importance… it was like he was always trying to do things the right way, trying to make things right so that at the end…

 

 
He clenched his fists. So that when that moment comes he would be able to do something, anything really, to keep that person alive. Watanuki was important, important to all kinds of beings and important to all kinds of dimensions… more important than Doumeki would ever understand, but what really mattered to Doumeki was the importance that Watanuki had in his life. He had learned that feelings and thoughts were priceless and should be cared for like treasures, Watanuki being unconscious of his hold on Doumeki’s thoughts and feelings wouldn’t ever understand how much he really mattered.

 
He tentatively touched the fragile thing, caressing it softly, fondly, lovingly. Almost as if asking it if he was doing the right thing and praying that he was enough, because he never felt like what he did was enough, and God, please, please, please, please...  But he actually never asked, he never wished when he wasn’t supposed to.

 
He wanted to do exactly what he was supposed to, he wanted to be enough, he wanted to be whatever Yuuko-san wanted him to be in whatever plan she’s preparing. Because, although he isn’t fond of the woman, he still thinks that she’s far more motherly over Watanuki than she lets on. He smiled a little. Watanuki sure could attract more than ayakashis. In fact, the boy was able to become special to anyone. The archer closed his eyes letting his own feelings for the boy turn into thoughts, thoughts that would never leave his mind, because things like that didn’t have a place to go. Himawari knew, Yuuko knew, Kohane-chan knew… even that black manjuu and the pipefox knew about it. But Watanuki didn’t. He probably didn’t even suspect. That idiot. It was such a sweet and warm feeling… but also, just a little cold and bitter.

 
The egg in his hand felt cold and dead… and somehow Yuuko’s words came to his mind, saying that this egg, the thing that he should care for until that day, wouldn’t hatch into anything. He was afraid of thinking too deep about it, but then again, it was Watanuki’s special ability to deny things, not his. But the thought scared him just a little, because Watanuki’s egg, just like his feelings and words and his own self, was warm and filled with life.

 
This egg was cold. This egg wouldn’t hatch. This egg wouldn’t reach Watanuki as a beautiful gift.

 
…Why?

 
Why did he keep hoping and treasuring those feelings? Why did he hold the egg like a lifeline?

- But I still… want to protect the person who is most important to me.

 
A bitter smile.

 
- Maybe I’m really hopeless.


Le End.


OMG... This suck so bad....and it doesn't even have pron! XD Gomenasai! Please, be kind and forgive this baka writer for not presenting you something worthy of the xxxHolic fans! *runs crying* Okay... angsting aside. I have absolutely no idea what made me write this LIES! IT WAS 4 HOURS OF NONSTOP XXXHOLICNESS!!! but...the angst mood caught me and I really, really, really, reaaaaaally like Doumeki.  Er... so... comments anyone?


Icons = <3
Hayato
[info]kazahayakudou

I made a few icons :D

D.Gray-Man: 9
Gohou Drug: 4
Gundam OO: 7
Junjou Romantica: 28
Tactics: 6
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles: 3
X/1999: 2
xxxHolic: 26
Bukiyou na Silent:  3
Death Note (movie): 1
Total: 89


PS: Tsubasa icons (55 and 56) were made using 

[info]pandapluartwork, here's the link to the original: http://pandaplu.livejournal.com/37955.html#cutid1

Now excuse me, I need to fangirl over her awesome drawing: JFKJDSHFKJDSHFKDHSFGKJHGKSHGKH!!!!! <3 By the way, I highly recommend you to go see her works, she's really an amazing artist! (she made the cutest eggs EVAR XDDDD) Me loves you, Pandaplu-san!

Small comments about the icons: D.Gray-Man = new obsession XD OMG! I love this anime/manga! Even the bad guys are cute! XD lol number 5 and 9 are my favs! XD

Junjou Romantica: 45 screams "You must explain!". I had the brush of "catch up with the SUN" ready, but when I put it with Nowaki... it made perfect sense! It was really perfect for him! He thinks of Hiroki like his sun and he's always trying his hardest to catch up with him... (geez.. Nowaki&Hiroki reach a whole new level of MOE XDDDD)

xxxHolic (obviously my favorite part): 63 = caught XD Don't even try to deny it, Doumeki! Your love for Watanuki borders obsession XD And the next episodes of xxxHolic:Kei just BEGGED for icon 62.

70 -> killed me. The Shizuka x Haruka relationship just kills my brain! XD I mean, Haruka gets along so well with Watanuki (jealous Doumeki FTW!) ... Yes, the canon relationship between Haruka, Watanuki and Doumeki makes my fangirl heart go all DOKI DOKI! XDDDD damn you CLAMP!

Death Note: 89... L!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fangirls *glomps L and gives him cakes/sweets/ice cream/panda crackers/etc...*

Feel free to use them, but please, credit it. ^^

65 icons of Code Geass (geez ¬¬)
Hayato
[info]kazahayakudou

I think that I finally lost it. Yeah, yeah... Today I made 65 (SIXTY FIVE GOD DAMN ICONS) icons of CG... actually, Code Geas R2. So that pretty much tells what the hell is going on when I have absolutely NOTHING to do for a whole day. I wanted to make, xxxHolic: Kei, Junjou Romantica, Gundam 00 and D. Gray Man icons but I guess that I'll have to do that tomorrow ;______;

I'm not even very fan of Geass, yes I do love the anime, but not as much as I do Gundam 00 and, now, D. Gray Man. (My love for xxxHolic and Doumeki is not open for discussion or comparison, period.) I don't know what the hell happened today, oh, well... onto the icons!

I learned a few things about myself with this:
1) I shouldn't get my hands on Suzaku's pictures, results are always TERRIBLE.
2) My best icons are of people that I particularly don't like. (it doesn't mean that I hate nunnally, euphemia or karen a certain character, I just don't like them. By the way, I admire Karen as a woman, she's hawt, she's smart and she kicks ass... I just don't like her when: she's acting like a love sick puppy for Zero/she's trying not that she'll ever be able to kick SUZAKU'S ass! No one kicks his ass, bitch!)
3) I NEED MORE ZINO IN MY LIFE. drools all over Mr. Knight
4) I shouldn't write on my icons, they suck.
5) Lancelot > everything is so true! XD I ran out of things to put on this list, but I made to number because it looks cuter.

PS: People who get the joke with Anya's Knightmare can ask me for whatever icon they want me to make, just give me the picture (or don't) and say what you want. (only one, k?)


photoshop is <3
Hayato
[info]kazahayakudou

Got my photoshop back! \o/ YAY! So, I was looking for textures, brushes and stuff to make more icons when I found

[info]ilusionaryheart -san coloring tutorial!! And is like a dream come true! XD I started coloring a 104 doujinshi and MAN! THAT'S A FUNNY SHIT! 8D I feel like a little kid who just discovered internet yaoi pron ice cream! XDDD


   


I sooooo want to color all my yaoi pron!


My first colored scans! I'm so proud! 8D Now I can read my pron IN TECHNICOLORS! XDDDDDD Naaaa, just kidding! But I do want to play with my favorite scenes of Gohou Drug and xxxHolic! And the best thing is: I can use it to make icons! 8D Aaaahhhh... life is so good. Tomorrow I'll download xxxHolic: Kei ep.03 and Junjou Romantica ep. 02! I won't lie, I'm counting the seconds to see that scene when Doumeki says: "We'll share half of the burden." And damn it all if I'm not making icons of THAT! And speaking of icons... I made a few today!



     
     
     



I don't know why, but the last one gives me the creeps (it looks like the poor guy is going to be raped) o_O AND YES! MukoufujiwaraxNayuki ICONS! 8D This couple deserves so much love! I know that I only made two, but I'll make more! I promise! Hmmm... I guess that my favorites are number 1 and 2, 'cause in the first one, Watanuki's face is just PRICELESS and in the second one I keep imagining this scene: Doumeki explaining to Watanuki a very complex sex position from Kama Sutra (Watanuki is, of course, trying to will himself into a quick death) with a very calm expression. I wanted to put something like this: "Then, you put your legs..." but I didn't have enough space ;_; My gosh... I won't try to explain "This big..." for you guys... Like I said, it was from a 104 pron doujinshi... my mind was very dirty and creative at the time...

OH! And talking about dirty things, look what I found!

    
Like THIS
 
and LockonTieria being canon wasn't enough!

I mean, what's happening with Sunrise+Anime? Why is Sunrise abusing of the yaoi subtext? (maybe CLAMP was a really bad influence). The bad thing is: I'm starting to like non-canon pairings! o_O

AlleTier, GrahamBilly, SuzakuBlondie, HalleAlle (don't ask, I dunno either).
 

 


Icons <3
Hayato
[info]kazahayakudou

I've been playing a little with my photoshop, but this was my first time making icons, so please, go easy on me X3

Icons:

Gohou Drug: 15 (12 icons and 3 signatures)
Gundam 00: 7
Persona Trinity Soul: 01
Tsubasa: 6
Vampire Knight: 13
xxxHolic:Kei : 35
Total: 77


xxxHolic: Kei is taking over my mind...


You can use/grab/steal as much as you want, but crediting me would make me reaaaally happy, ok? Also, comments will be very helpfull, it's the first time I made icons, so I still don't know what is good and what is junk, PLEASE HELP ME!

Hyuuuu... I guess that's all! X3

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